Thursday, March 12, 2009

Bury Me in Oblivion

Woke up from a dream whispering;
I just felt a warm breath down my neck…Was it your absent visiting me again…?

Standing awake,
blending into lonely stillness
wanting to hide away within

this stark essence of rippling emptiness.

From the fountain of night
darkness pouring steadily and proud.
As voices of yesterday
brush upon memories,
past forgathering with reality.
Tomorrow is skipping away,
yet sinking feet of thoughts
are dragging, unable to move me ahead.
Trying to find a way out
but eyes that weep can only look
they can never seem to see,
to find Mercy’s Path.
Claws of Separation locked into my soul,
flew me beside their half-lit crescent moon
to bury me in oblivion…
That is how my breath ended,
trapped within a space
between Heaven and Hell,
with my silently screaming verses.
Everything that ever was
now just a black imprint
in the ashes of time
hues of dreams fade
as dust of dullness
peacefully settles down

Woke up from a dream whispering; Even though you are far away my Love is still close to you from up above every night, it will watch over you…

I believe

Self. Brotherhood. God. Zeus. Communism.
Capitalism. Buddha. Vinyl records.
Baseball. Ink. Trees. Cures for disease.
Saltwater. Literature. Walking. Waking.
Arguments. Decisions. Ambiguity. Absolutes.
Presence. Absence. Positive and Negative.
Empathy. Apathy. Sympathy and entropy.
Verbs are necessary. So are nouns.
Empty skies. Dark vacuums of night.
Visions. Revisions. Innocence.
I've seen All the empty spaces yet to be filled.
I've heard All of the sounds that will collect
at the end of the world.
And the silence that follows.

I'm alive, I believe in everything
I'm alive, I believe in it all.

Waves lapping on the shore.
Skies on fire at sunset.
Old men dancing on the streets.
Paradox and possibility.
Sense and sensibility.
Cold logic and half truth.
Final steps and first impressions.
Fools and fine intelligence.
Chaos and clean horizons.
Vague notions and concrete certainty.
Optimism in the face of adversity.

I'm alive, I believe in everything
I'm alive, I believe in it all.

I'll Never Break

From the mightiest of all feelings found beyond deep within

This is my message… you will never break me! Never win!
Destroy all hope of happiness for the bond of love is taken
Arise shall I when a new day dawns, my eyes will awaken
Cursed by love as life is shaken inches away from being forsaken.

Taste the bitter sweet empathy as hopes & dreams turn to ashes
Night to day with haunted memories that forever flashes
Frequent screams to the world around as existence slowly crashes,
Pain infects our unknown depts I ride the road of harsh reality
Deceitful games played by life while edging closer to final fatality.

Tough times pollute stale air as feelings becomes too much to bare
Sneaking through tainted darkness with no one seemingly there,
Battle loves voice as it does what it pleases, just to make us feel small
If you cut me I bleed, even scratch me I mark, but if you push me I fall
I’ll arise again even if I drown because nothing will ever keep me down!

Take everything that’s possible still leave me with nothing at all
Breaking my body even lay sharp nails seemingly enhancing the fall
I’ll always get up and continue the fight for loves true call,
So from the mightiest of all feelings found beyond deep within
This is my message… you will never break me! You will never win!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

a thousand tears

The first five tears I cry as I lay down to sleep,
Are the tears for the memories inside my heart,
All the days we spent side by side together,
And all the reasons we are now apart.

A tear for each single kiss we shared back then,
Just one more for the hugs and the smiles,
A tear I cry for the pain and the loneliness inside,
That I’ll feel for more than a million miles.

It doesn’t matter how many tears I cry,
Never does it stop making me feel so blue,
Cos baby, I’m ashamed to admit it but…
I’m crying a thousand tears for you.

twilight

Forbidden fruit
Red tainted white rose
The object of my desire
In all your complete perfectness

Pale skin
With just a hint of life
Eyes that I could melt in
Only if you let me

Yet cold as stone you remain
Marble skin
Cold to the touch
Yet warms my heart

It seems you don’t breath at all
Why am I drawn to you
Wrong or right, it doesn’t matter anymore
I have already fallen

Perfect in your God like form
Black as night
Yet I see you as if bathed in perfect sunlight
How I yearn to hold you close

You shy away, like I don’t exist
It pains me to look at you again
Your topaz eyes, black as night
I wonder why that is

Old legends, can’t be true
Yet I know that deep inside
When I look at you
You aren’t what you appear

Hidden deep inside you
Are secrets you swore to keep
I feel the need to see them
They are the only thing keeping me alive

Reaching for what can’t be mine
You taunt me with your perfect grace
The cold statuesque face
Reach out and hold me, I yearn for your touch

I can feel the slightest tingle
When you sit next to me
Why, oh why can’t you just see
I’m in love with you

Heart full of passion
Desires unquenched
Make me like you
Hold me forever

All I ask, which isn’t much
Is for you to touch me
Walk with me now
Through the Twilight

again, i fall....silly wishes.

Silly wishes,
I know
as I sit on a rainy day
with drops falling on my palms
like dimes
that have been lost
and are hitting tile floors.

Silly thoughts,
I know
as I take precious pieces of colored glass
and mend them together
when I should be planting
my incessant mind
on firm roots.

But on moments like these
I all can do is wish,
wish that someone
could brush away the raindrops
from my skin
and fuss about my hair.

But on days like these
I need someone
to pull up my chin
and dry the fears
that well within my heart
like a locket that is so worn
that it breaks.

I know my thoughts
are wasted,
yet I linger for a sweet taste
of something I wish I had.

If only someone
anyone
who could care for me in such a way,
as to carry me to the highest of mountains
and teach me to fly..
without falling down.

Lucid thoughts-voices from the heart

Love is sublime. Love gives power. Love gives determination. In love, many lovers do what they could never dream of. Empires have been sacrificed for love. Battles have been fought for love. Love has ruled mankind since ages. Those who experience love are truly lucky.



-Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind.
-You can’t change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying over the future.
-Love…and you shall be loved.
- Love is strengthened by working through conflicts together.
-Harsh words break no bones, but they do break hearts.
- For every minute you are angry with someone, you lose 60 seconds of happiness that you can never get back.



The winds of change are blowing
through the chambers of my mind,
and they’re telling me the time has come
to finally leave the past behind.

All my paths of indecision
are at a crossroads finally,
and the apex of forgiveness
is where I now should be.

This soul destroying attitude
of, ‘I’ll forget but can’t forgive’,
is hindering my future happiness
and the freedom I need to live.

So I let the breeze of comfort
gently come and erase my pain,
and allow life’s desired serenity
help me learn to live again.

words...oh words

Do words elude you?
Flee your mind?
Do seasons mix?
Until you find,
No one listens?
No one cares?
People look at you,
with hateful stares?
Life is a circle,
'Round we go!
Chase the words
of seed to sow.

Ever have one of those days when all you do is refrain from bursting into tears and screaming at the top of your lungs so everyone can hear your cry…

Ever have one of those days when you have to struggle to pull yourself out of bed knowing that you have to once again face this awful world of reality…

Ever have one of those days when you would just like to sit in complete silence and not worry about what is going on around you…

Ever have one of those days when you would just like to forget about the past and hope for nothing but happiness in the future…

Ever have one of those days when you feel as if no one could help heal pain and frustration you feel within…

Ever have one of those days when you would just like to lie in bed all day long just staring at the ceiling…

Ever have one of those days when you fight your mind from racing about everything little thing you don’t want to think about…

Ever have one of those days when you wish that the one person you want the most would also want you too…

Ever have one of those days when you wonder why you bother caring when the one person you care about doesn’t even care…

Ever have one of those days when you wish you just wouldn’t have even woken up…




In the gossamer mists he came to me,
The Prince of My Dreams.
Arms open wide
he swept me inside their loving warmth,
and there I stayed
for the sweetest while.

Alas, ‘tis now dawn,
my handsome Prince has gone.
Morning dew sparkles
on the lips of the rose
as softly I whisper,
You are my true love,
Do you know?